Linking up with Lisa-Jo for Five Minute Friday. We write for five minutes flat (unedited) on a prompt she provides.
Today’s prompt is: Remember. Here goes. . .
I love to remember- sit and talk with friends and family about what we've done, where we've been, and what used to be. I love to pour a glass of wine and listen to stories of others to help me remember things I'm already starting to forget. But right now, just 5 1/2 short months after losing my favorite person, my best friend, me cool cousin- it hurts to remember, but I don't ever want to stop. I am scared that if I don't try to remember every detail of the past every day of the present and future that I might forget something. Her smell, her voice, her personality. There were SO many special things about Ali that I can remember- her love fore food- cheese, steak (as rare as it comes), Mr. Pibb, and pickles; the tone in her voice when she'd exclaim FUCK! when something didn't go as planned. Her OCD about having a plan and sticking to the plan. Her love of adventure and always wanting to be doing something. Card games, shopping trips, and WALMART! I don't want to forget, I don't want to let go, I MUST remember! I will, always, I promised her that.
Ali lost a fight with brain cancer, and although at the end she didn't know/remember any of the promises we made. I will never stop remembering......
and, STOP!
Hmmmm...your post brought back memories of my grandmother who suffered and died from brain cancer. No, we will never forget and will always honor. Beautifully written. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteAwe. What a special post...as you think about her...the memories will come...you won't forget. I still find myself remembering new things about my dad, gone 20 years now. God is faithful and He will help you...
ReplyDeleteBlessings my FMF friend.
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